It's proof of just how she affects him. For a long time he wanted to be the
smooth, suave Gansey around Blue; he wanted to impress her. Now he prefers
being able to be 'just Gansey' with Blue and he's learned that she's far
more impressed by who he really is than by who he shows the world. That's
one thing that he admires about Blue, always has: what she shows the world
is precisely and exactly who she is. That's brave, in Gansey's opinion. He
spends a good deal of his time terrified that the world will see who he
really is and find him lacking.
It's not the sort of trip that he usually takes, but there's no Welsh king
to search for and he likes the idea of making the world a little better
place with something other than his money (though he's put some of that
into the project as well). This project doesn't feel like an obligation or
a pipe dream, but something solid he can support and a way to help Blue out
as well.He has enjoyed being here.
"Mmmm, I'm aware," he hums a little, clearly pleased with himself. "It's
safe as life," he promises her as they come to the edge of the clearing. He
stops just inside it and watches Blue rather than the scene he's laid
before her. He knows what it looks like. He wants to know what she looks
like seeing it.
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It's proof of just how she affects him. For a long time he wanted to be the smooth, suave Gansey around Blue; he wanted to impress her. Now he prefers being able to be 'just Gansey' with Blue and he's learned that she's far more impressed by who he really is than by who he shows the world. That's one thing that he admires about Blue, always has: what she shows the world is precisely and exactly who she is. That's brave, in Gansey's opinion. He spends a good deal of his time terrified that the world will see who he really is and find him lacking.
It's not the sort of trip that he usually takes, but there's no Welsh king to search for and he likes the idea of making the world a little better place with something other than his money (though he's put some of that into the project as well). This project doesn't feel like an obligation or a pipe dream, but something solid he can support and a way to help Blue out as well.He has enjoyed being here.
"Mmmm, I'm aware," he hums a little, clearly pleased with himself. "It's safe as life," he promises her as they come to the edge of the clearing. He stops just inside it and watches Blue rather than the scene he's laid before her. He knows what it looks like. He wants to know what she looks like seeing it.